i don't understand why things always have to go to shit. why things always have to affect you and you can never seem to be happy. i don't expect you to be perfect but it's really frustrating when i try and tell you the positive side of things but you just push it away and you can't seem to hold onto optimism. how you constantly clutch to your anger. how nothing is ever good enough. i just want you to be happy. but your negativity always affects me and its so hard not to be influenced by it. i hate how we were doing so good then you let everything get the best of you. i know things will get better but its so fucking hard to see the bright side of things when you're so used to having everything demolish right in front of you.