So Andy is having issues with her love.
It's actually really sad.
Basically her boyfriend's friends decided
that he had to choose between them or her.
And he couldn't have both so he chose his friends.
But now they're still going out "secretly."
Honestly though.
How can you call them friends when they
make you choose between themselves and
their friend's love?
It's actually more more complicated then
what it appears here.

Anyways, we had a chat about the situation
and how she could never be "single."
Because she would always have a longing for someone.
And even though she knows she should break up with
her love she'd rather "secretly" be with him even though
it'll create more complications.

I told her out of all honesty, she's the lucky one here.
She actually has someone.
Unlike me, I've never ever had someone.
And then she said she'd rather be me because now
having 8309482390482039483948 boyfriends she
cannot maintain being single.

She actually said it more profoundly but I can't
remember exactly what she said.

I still think she's the lucky one here.

At least she doesn't suffer from unrequited love.
At least she doesn't have to torture herself
with fancying people she doesn't deserve.
At least if she fancies someone, she usually gets them.

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KENDAHL STOP COMPARING YOURSELF TO OTHERS.

thought, overload.
will write later.
can't express how i feel.f dsjfsadkl;fjsdklfjasldkfd. fucksake.

Here we go again.

I went to Church with Sarah again today.
And I saw him.
I feel so prohibited to even glance at him.
Even though, I have found someone new to
pine over.
Seeing him today just made all those feelings
resurface. And I wish it didn't happen.
I suppose there's just some things you
cannot control, even if you try your hardest.
He sang in the band today and he spotted me
in the crowd of faces. He smiled and wave.
It was cute and the look on his face made it
appear as if he wanted to talk to me after.
He has such a lovely voice when he sings.
It was funny because he messed up the lyrics
a couple of times. He never really looked at me
when he sang but once he did. I don't know
how to explain this.
But basically my heart is the biggest idiot ever.
His hair grew out and he looks even more cuter.
flksdjlfkjsdlkjfsdlkafsd.

I don't care what Sarah says.
I'm not going to let her control my heart for me.
Even if my heart leads me to getting hurt in the end.
It'll be my fault. Because this time, I'm listening
to what my heart tells me.
FUCK THE ODDS.

I don't care if he's super religious or if what
Sarah says is true about him.
It never hurt to take a chance.
To try.

Wish me luck. =)