i can't write a proper post.

but i miss you. dear god i miss you to bits and pieces. 8 weeks. or more. it doesn't seem that long and its not like you're never coming back but this hurts like hell.

i know i am one to miss people and places all the time but i don't think i've ever missed or loved someone so much in my entire life. i sound mental but no one knows me better than you do and we've only known each other for a month. but i know that what we have is rare. how is that two people enter each other's lives and miraculously change one another and fall completely in love in 30 days? how is that this particular individual knows me inside and out, down to the fucking core?

all i know is that this process isn't going to be easy but i know we are going to be just fine. its funny because if you asked me 5 days ago, i'd be terrified as hell. but somehow in the last 24 hours i've lost the fear, of what could happen, the what ifs. this is all for a better purpose. you'll be back soon. but i'm not going to deny the fact that this incredibly hurts.

i just love you to death.