this is getting serious.
my depression is high and
my anxiety is over the top.
i'm trying to control the demons.
but i can't.

they broke loose monday night.
and my arms are screaming.

i'm pretending again.


everyday is the fucking same.
everything is so routine...

you walk through the hallways,
quiet, hiding in headphones.
pass the blurred faces.
familiar voices.
you hurry off to get to your
destination.
unnoticed. invisible.


i don't know why i feel so overwhelmed.
i don't really have any tests or exams
to worry about except maybe the socials
provincial which is in 2 weeks.
and school ends in less than a week.
i'm not even menstruating.
i'm eating alright.
so why do i feel such pain?


oh, questions.
unanswered.
so very distant from truth.



























i am so empty.