i hate this strange, unknown feeling of uncertainty.
i feel it every day. i don't know why.
it's weird being back home, still.
and it's incredibly frustrating how i still
haven't adjusted. it's been almost 3 weeks.
i want to go back to India.
and see those kids with such beautiful faces.
i want to be immersed in that culture,
so full of contrast, a beautiful chaos.
i want to be with those amazing 22 friends i made.
i want to be back in the atmosphere of tranquility.
i want to know i have a purpose in this life.
i want to believe in myself.
i want to change the world and better myself.
i want to go back to the place i know best.

i feel so detached from North American society.
i feel so disgusted with almost everyone i see.
this teenage society, they're all so materialistic, so
self-absorbed, so ignorant and pretentious.
i miss being surrounded by people who were
open-minded, willing to change the world and be free.
i miss this all too much.

and i don't know how to stop this feeling.
i just miss everything and everyone from/about India.

just want to go back to the place where i belonged.