So I'm semi-convinced J fancies me or 

is at least interested in me.

Jew dinner went well, 

despite the fact Nich & I were

hella nervous about it.

This is what you get for over-analyzing

situations and distorted thinking.

We thought it would be really awkward

and nerve wracking but to our astonishment,

it turned out pretty fun.

Well, I mainly had more reasons to be nervous

considering I had to apologize to Nat's dad.

It went over pretty well, he actually just laughed about 

that Saturday night and was really nice about it. 

But it was strange, I noticed J kept talking to me

the whole night. It was quite interesting.

Mostly conversing about bands that Nat disliked. haha.

She's not exactly fond of the whole "pop-punk" genre.

He mentioned that I was dragging her to the We The Kings gig

on Tuesday, which by the way I am EXTREMELY stoked for.

I laughed and said, unfortunately I am. 

It was so weird because we were both going for the same reason:

to see WTK and Hey Monday we didn't care much for The Academy Is.

But he told me I should check out "Friday Night Boys"

and I did, and they're surprisingly really catchy.

Oh, and because I showed Nat the "Check Yes Juliet" video

she kept saying "Hey Hey Juliet are you with me?" and I'd be like

"NO! It's Check Yes Juliet!" Haha.

So at the dinner we had to drink Jewish wine in these mini

shot-glass looking cups. And I didn't really know what to do

with it and he kept laughing me. He was all like "I was going

to make a joke but I decided not to." I was like "fine!"

Nich was making fun of me because I thought I had to take it

as a shot. Oh and by the way, her family will NEVER LIVE THAT

SATURDAY NIGHT DOWN. SERIOUSLY.

Her mum was all like "only 1 beer for you!" ahhahahahaha.

At the dinner table, J kept talking to me. 

Mostly about bands. And he told me how the last thing

I said to him when they dropped me off was "sorry you had to witness this."

WOW, EMBARRASSING. But quite funny. I sadly don't recall saying that.

Yeah, we can all just forget about that night.

Crap. I hate this feeling.

I don't want to pursue this. 

Why does age matter so much to me?

When I'm all about fucking the rules.

Forget the structure of society.

Anarchist unleashed. 

I should just let it be.

i'm falling in love but it's falling apart,

i need to find my way back to the start.