i know i'm not going to get anywhere if i don't take risks, if i let go of the hands of the unexpected. but i am terrified. as much as i'm falling for you badly, as much as i'm sure that you fancy me too. i am scared for the safety of my heart. i don't want it to be recycled again or torn or smashed or walked over or trashed. and i haven't felt this way in forever and i feel like i'm 15 again. everything is new, everything is enticing and you never know where this moment will lead to but maybe, i have to risk all of this right now to really feel this. and i am willing to sacrifice all this armor, all this protection, all the barriers i've built so carefully to keep my heart guarded. i'm throwing down my sword, all my defenses and surrendering myself to this attraction i have tried so hard to prevent. i am yours, take me away with all the wonders of your smile. i am terrified but i can't refute the fact that this organ beats so heavily in my chest when i think of you.
1 comment:
take a breath and jump. sometimes theres unexpected in stability.
i wish i had known that a while back.
-b
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