I got that shirt for Christmas and I love it. God, she is too pretty for her own good. But she's really nice and shockingly petite in person! 

Well the holidays have been slow so far but I'm glad I actually have plans tomorrow. It sucks when 90 % of your friends are on vacation somewhere and you're left in fucking shitty Vancouver where it's negative 832904823904 and the weather is awful. 

Although today I do have the motivation in me to do art! And I actually read a bit of Sex, Drugs & Cocoa Puffs. =)

So the bad news is that Christina is working New Year's Eve so she's probably not having a party hence I won't be seeing Mike. Horrible. Horrible. But somehow I still have hope...that little bit left in me that MAYBE. JUST MAYBE. [HOPEFULLY] she'll have a party just so I have an excuse to see him. Wow, I'm clearly just pathetic beyond description.

Surprisingly, though I'm not really sad? Ohwell. Life is uninteresting at the moment just living day by day. I'm obsessed with the Jac Vanek bracelets I got for X-mas. Been wearing them every day. I need to get the second part of the "Glamour Kills" one because it's suppose to say Live & Love. But I only got the Live part. Ohwell. I wore it with my "Peace" one today so it kinda works out? I love the legit one. I think it's my favourite for some reason besides "Ruthless" and "Wallflower." And I am so. so. grateful for my hot pink doc. martins 'cause they really are helping me with the winter weather --- snow & slush & all. ew. 

Oh and I purchased "The Final Riot" CD/DVD. FINALLY. Paramore is amazing beyond description. I cannot even to begin to explain how bloody epic Hayley Williams is. Freaking a. 

Oh yeah, so on x-mas Sarah gave me her journal as a gift...mainly to explain why she hasn't been completely honest with me this year and why we've been distant. It was REALLY GENEROUS and AWFULLY BRAVE of her to do such an act and I am grateful. She wrote a note at the end of her last entry explaining that these pages were her and how she is in a committed relationship with "God." She explained to me how she was scared of telling me this because she feared I would "reject" her or bluntly explaining look down on her. I know she has always been religious but I didn't realize how much this year it has pretty much consumed her and how she is extremely devoted to "God." I respect her decision, I don't think of her any less. It's just not my thing, y'know? I've tried being "religious." And it didn't help me. But now I know this is her and this is who she's become. I'm kinda at a loss for words because I really don't know what to say. It's not that I'm disappointed or offended or anything of that sort. Just I don't know, it's strange how people really commit their lives to religion. And maybe I don't believe what she believes but I still respect her. It's funny, because I used to think we were the same. We used to have a lot in common. But overtime we found our own paths and we're really different people now. Again, strange what time does to us. Really. It's something I have yet to figure out but in the mean time. I'll just watch with open eyes.